December, My friend

Dear December,

Do you remember me? Well, I surely do remember you for if not, you won't be receiving this. December, you always come after 11 others. You shower the world with bitter water to wash our thick make up and see what's inside. You are always the one telling us to buck up. December, you are so persistent. : ) 

December, do you remember the time when I first went out? Haha! It was MY FIRST MOVIE outing! Oh how can I forget! I got lost in Dhoby Gauht and it was the first time I stepped out into the wilderness. It was beautiful. And yes, haha, the times I went home REALLY late. Or the times I talked to people I never knew. Oh what about the times where I always look acroos at her? Hmm...

December, do you remember that person? Remember last year? I would always talk to you about her smile and how it made me happy and how she talked would make me think twice of what I would reply. Remember that? Haha! Well I was talking non stop about her. But it was sad too. I could only talk about her. I could never look at her straight in the eye. I would never have the courage. How big the courage was, I still couldn't. She's the only person that is better than me. She is, my weakness. 

But it was hard too. I was put to a situation where I could no longer could be with her. And that was when I fell. Every glance seems to be poison pumped into my veins. Every word at me stings me. Everything just falls apart. How can such a human live? 

And I am a fool. For which human could be fall in love, break and fall for the same person? I must have a very strong mind.  She's just too... too real. Too real for me to love. Hmm...

But December, even though she won't accept me, I will still hold her tight. I will still love her. And December, like I said earlier, don't be persistent. Stop raining for a while! I need to run!

Your's Truly

Stupid. Bodoh. Hmm...

Stupid and bodoh are some of the words that sink deep in our vocabulary of vulgarity. The reason it's there is because from young, we are exposed by these words. And so it is etched on our minds. These days, it's so common to hear them till we lost the real menace behind it. These simple words, which means lacking of intelligence, are minor. However, they do have their sting. Yes, the sting can't be compared to a bee's but if that sting is continuous, it will mount up to a mountain of pain that will crush one like a tsunami.  For example, today, my mom has called me STUPID and BODOH numerous times now; More than any normal day. Even though it's just minor, it does sting me. Sometimes I feel that I'm up to no use. I feel despised. Am I really stupid? If I am, how did I get to 3SB? The second class of the whole cohort? If I'm stupid, why am I here? Well like I have said earlier, it's a small sting mounting up to be a GIANT mountain. The good thing is, I DESTROYED the mountain!

; )

  

Hmm...

MICROSOFT!!!! YOUR HOTMAIL CAN'T WORK WITH MAC'S FIREFOX!
AND

but HECK...

What's wrong?

The taskbar... it's not suppose to do that you know..



The dock.... Maybe it's a sign telling us that the CPU is running high..

WHO CARES! AS LONG AS I CAN WATCH ONE PIECE!

:)

I'm bored... without .

Yeah, I guess you have heard me ranting that I am BORED! Well it can't be avoided. A holiday is a holiday. But of course, if you were to consider the other useful things that I could do like...
Doing my homework
Cleaning my room
Exercising
Saving money
Volunteer at a Old Folk's Home
Help my mom
Study

I won't be bored after all! But I'm just lazy... Yeah, it's the rainy season! It's time to sleep!!! Anyway, I think I'm going to plan out the Physics video for now. Draw out the scenes and list down the props. I still can't find a video camera so worst case scenario, I have to ask from my friend. MAN! SO PAISEH!!! But first. I need to check whether my digi cam could do the same functions as a video camera. What's the diff you ask?

Well there is a HUGE difference! I'm sure you know that one captures STILL PHOTOS and the other MOVING PHOTOS! That's the NO. 1 DIFFERENCE! Also, the data that is resulted is also different. The digi cam converts the video to MPEG 1 format. If you import this to any video editing software, the software will not recognise the the sounds and thus making the video, soundless. Mute I say. However, the video cam converts the video to MPEG 4. A format well known by the world of video photographers. If imported into the software, it will keep the sound and make it what a REAL video file is. So that's the main problem I'm facing now. Dang...

Anyway, I'm waiting for the camera battery to be fully charged. That may take a while so why don't I watch some One Piece! Haha! Yup. From Ep 1 to 300!!! THAT'S A LOT!!! Oh wait. Ep 111 is not streamed. Well nevermind, I'll just download it by torrent unless... [Checks the net whether it's illegal to download...] OH CRAP! IT IS ILLEGAL TO DOWNLOAD!!! WHY DID THEY LICENSED IT!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

And yeap, that;s another crazy post by me. Hope I didn't SCARE you... HAHA! Be back after my Physics!

SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT! x)

Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
We lost track of the time
Dreams aren't what they used to be
Some things sat by so carelessly

Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

And someone is calling my name
From the back of the restaurant
And someone is playing a game
In the house that I grew up in
And someone will drive her around
Down the same streets that I did
On the same streets that I did

Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Oh no, oh no no no
Oh no, oh no no no

Beautiful Day

It's life.

"Young man. I've seen your sup paper and I want to tell you that what you doing is just the BARE MINIMUM. You have to buck up Zul!"
- Mrs Charles; SAS Principal
Met her on my way to school yesterday.

"My problem is mine. Your is yours."
- My dad
A brief recall of the argument I had with him.

"Zul, he has changed. I think what's best for you is to just ignore him."
- My mom
A thought of what my mom felt.

"She's keeping me alive for making me have a crush on her. That's something I must thank her for. If not for her, I'm just a corpse."
- ME
What I felt about my crush.