tired and lame

not angry at me
theres little space for you to fight me
give up
don't use my words against me
for the reason to keep on fighting,
i will bring you down
you make me tired and lame
i will never touch you
i just ask for your departure
walk, run, crawl, fly
i don't care
just go away
dusks and summer has such wonderful words
that's all
full stop.

ok i gotta go

You know, I’m not at my best.
Well you should be. Why not?
Because I always think that you’re angry with me.
Me angry? Uh but why?
Yes, angry for not going for your classes, for not doing your work. I just want to know if you’re angry. Then everything should be normal.
I don’t understand…
Are you angry?
For…
For not being good enough.
Zul, I thought we went…
Ms ____, are you angry with me?
No.
=)
That’s all I need. And thank you for asking Ms ____ about me.
=)

10 44

it's 10.44.

i did my 2.4 in 10.44.

=)

FF best of you

I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]

Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

-no title-

she cared

=)

simple is a complicated word

Yes it is. Simple Is A Complicated Word. this is because to be simple is being someone you're not. it is always hard to be someone you're not. it's never easy to say things you don't want to. But being simple is the only easy way out.

I'm a bad friend. they are out there struggling while i'm here minding no one's business. my Heart tells me but my Mind forces me. I'm a bad son. all i need to do is to be simple. no wonder i have so many rough roads.

I'm being someone i don't want to be. I'm forcing myself to be simple. It's so hard. Emo is nice but crying is not. I want to be wise but a fool at the same time. I like someone who I can't be with. My Mind has stopped the race but my Heart still races on. neither sad or happy is what happens to me when my throw my heart away.

life is FUCKED UP!

make it quick

i'm still awake. i'm amazed how how fast time has passed. it as though it felt like yesterday was the End Of Term Service. MAN! ain't the world revolving too fast?

Yipee! I'VE FINALLY UPGRADED MY PHONE! It's a motorola. And for suspense's sake, I wont reveal the model! = ) ... My mom eventually gave in to my ear piercing cries of help due to my oldie "mouldy" handphone. i'm just glad that the new one has a clearer call quality, a 2 pix camera, a camera and it's sms has no limit! [ HA! my old one has a 160-characters limit...tsk ]. i just need a microSD card for my music and if i have enough $$$, an earpiece. [ i think it looks like the ones that dads use when driving their cars... well, at least i can play the music, it will be more than enough ]. O yea, not forgetting the usb & software bundle. they didn't include that... crap motorola lah...

well it's 3:18 now. tmmr is my last day of freedom and my last opportunity of finnishing my work. i got my dnt folio, 2 malay articles, chemistry TYS, Physics TYS, E and A Maths TYS. o crap... so many things to do... how can go lan like that???

My friday run... it was 2 minute slower....F it lah....

haiz....

distract

hahaha! i can't believe that for the past few months, i've been blogging! i never thought i would blog. but look at me now, spending time on my blog. no, today is not my blog's birthday. i just want to look back.

i went to irc on tuesday, thinking of updating my bf2 skills. well, i just sucked at it. there were little servers running and if i played on them, my ping would soared above 500. so after that, i went over to funan to catch some action in RoboGP. But instead, there's some inter-sch LAN gamming competition.




i guess it was the first day since there was no crowd. look at the machines! it's an asus. i think asus did a pretty good job ripping off Alienware! ANYWAY the competition didn't really open to many because it contested only 2 games. One of which is Gears Of War on the xbox 360.


MAN! there's like a row of xbox 360s' with all sorts of games but i really liked GoW. The graphics are AWESOME!!! but after all, you would need a HDTV to experience that. shucks! i want an xbox 360!!!! xP

haiz...

she

I'm sleepy now. I want to sleep now but I don't want. I want to talk to her now. I want to tell her that everything's going to br fine and will go back to normal if she understands. She does know but not entirely. I just want to talk. Is that a sin?

I should be going now but you stopped me, without even trying to. I can't let go. Landon was correct with his lyrics. Not forgetting Thom Yorke. He was right. I did lost myself. That was what I got when I messed with emotions.

argh... you can make it go away.

I shouldn't have lied to you.

break

i've just finished tution 20 minutes ago. It was abt A.Maths and E.Maths. Seriously A.Maths is a killer. I'm now at graphs and inequalities and they really use 'chim' language just to explain one simple equation. MAN! They really took out the heart of Maths... But i believe my tutor could have done much better. he wasn't that good in explaining the methods and such. but all i need is practice.

looking back at my posts, i can be called emo. but i'm not emo. i don't want to be called one. for the last few days, i've made huge decisions. now i'm all messed up. i want to be simple. but i can't. this is what i get when i mess with feelings. i've been asked why too many times. I can't take on this weight of 'why'. Let's keep this post clean. I'm not emo and I won't be.

All messed up, the only thing I can do is just sit. Not strong enough to stand. What am I? I can't even stand.

So will I just sit there and let it hit me?

No. It's never human of anyone. I got to do something. It's going to hit me hard. I have to block that hit. The hole in my heart must be filled. I got to do it now or else I'm going to sink further. Sink under the water and drown.