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it's so pain now...

not good

i'm unfair. i'm hating her because she ignores me. i'm hating her to forget her. whenever i hate her, the guilt is so intense that it feeds the will to hate her. so much so that i hate her more. it has been a week and i look back. i ask myself, why do i hate her? why? my eyes wont shed a tear but my heart bleeds openly. i'm losing my grip and losing her.

why do i hate her?

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my pain that i bear is different... it's not suitable to be even called pain... a low life class that anyone could overcome this pain... so why can't i? has the sight of her plague me? my knees become weak and my heart dies to see her broken hearted. i take it so hard. i need to talk. it pains me. let me cry...

into the ocean, end it all

kikkikikikik

MAN! i'm in no mood to do my hw lah... i love to SLACK!!! i kno i kno, i shouldnt slack...well i just want to relax one corner and clear my mind....i told myself it's better to clear my heart instead...it's full of impurities...i think i'm gonna cool off at irc...LAN HERE I COME!

invisible knives

shoot to kill.

strange eh? the guns of the west will write the future. the actions made by none of us will kill us. so what do we do?

nothing.

tainted but not impure. we are bad. but we are never evil.

NIL

I CAN'T BE
BOTHERED TO BLOG

= )

i loathe the sight of it

First thing first, TOGUSA says that Valentine's Day is for couples only...WTF? dude...here's a bit of wiki-ing... read through those things and i bet [cannot bet...tsk] promise there's one or two about Valentine's Day for friends...!!!

Freaking not fair man! I had the English Common Test today. I'm sure I have flunked it. Firstly, the time given was so much lesser! I had to finish an editing passage, a guided cloze [geez, my school is still giving GUIDED cloze passages...] and the standard comprehension with a 150-word summary! Believe it or not, i had to do this all under 1 hour. 45 minutes lesser than the Final Year Paper which consisted THE SAME FORMAT!!! [oh wait, my Final Year was missing the guided cloze] This is obviously UNFAIR!

But look at the other side, the passage was easy to understand. The editing cloze and the guided cloze could be done under 20 minutes. BUT WHO CARES! What care now is the fact that i'm going to fail...

I left 2 blanks in the cloze. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME??? I had the opportunity to do it earlier but i totally ignored that.

And why's that stupid prefect boasting about! SHUT UP! You've been repeating that stupid fact for ages now. It poisons my heart. now i'm thoughtless...hoping for a blank heart instead.